She showed me all the symptoms of depression and bipolarism and I have to agree that, no, he probably doesn't have those. BUT, BUT, he has something. Surely all this angst is more than ADHD.
No. He just has ADHD. SEVERE ADHD. Oh, and he's pretty angry.
Thanks for clearing that up for me.
We can do the clonidine for anger management again, but he had many choice words about that so I just let it go.
*Let it go, let it go, can't hold it back anymore…..*
He pitched a huge fit in her office about how he is 13, almost an adult, shouldn't have a contract to get his way, should be able to do whatever he wants, eat whatever he wants, not go back to anymore doctors, and I had to just laugh inside because all that bitching about what a big adult he was and all he looked like sitting there was tantrum-throwing two year old.
As we were leaving her office he turned around to her and said to her face: "F#$% You" and then we got to the car and he was all like, "Can I have my games when we get home?" Seriously. He thought he was getting his stuff for "behaving". It'd be freaking funny if it weren't so sad.
The husband is out of town on business and since he knew there would be no chance he would be subdued or whipped or kicked out of the house, he really let me have it last night. I finally took the little kids into the bedroom with me, took a triple dose of nyquil and passed out. Thank you Man-Who-Invented-Nyquil. Because of you I sleep.
While in my
I was finally able to get him out to the car and was only fifteen minutes late. I dropped him on the highway halfway there because he just would not shut his mouth. Don't call CPS on me. We live 7/10 of a mile from the school. He and many others have walked to and from many times.
We go on to school and the kids start laughing. I get there and lo and behold, there is that 3DS and three of it's games lying on the car seat. I guess he missed those when he got there. I am such a bad mother for never trusting him.
I shook until 9:30 this morning. My heart pounded out of my chest until 9. Adam's Mary Katherine Gallagher finger sniff tic was raging. Elizabeth cried when I took her to her classroom. Just another day in our lives. Oh the joy.
I am going out of town with friends tomorrow. I can't wait. I can't wait to NOT see that child for three whole days. The other kids, I am worried about. I hate leaving them, but I have just got to get away. I need my blood pressure to go down some. I want to eat a full meal for once. I want to sleep without Ny-quil.
ADHD. It's a made up affliction. If I were just a better parent it would all go away.