Every year I make a big list of the things I am going to do to make our lives better as the calendar changes. Sometimes I stick to them, sometimes I forget all about them until I look back and see, oh yeah....oops. I swore I wasn't going to make any in 2014, but I have this innate need to make lists and check off those lists, and work toward a goal. It really is very annoying.
I did lose about 8 pounds last year. I don't really know how I did it, except maybe the trip to Disney where we didn't purchase the dining plan and only ate one meal a day. Combined with all that walking, I lost 15 pounds in just that one week alone. Of course, they opened a Which Wich very close to me resulting in gaining some of it back, but I am now a size 8 again instead of almost a 12. I'll take it. I am 45 years old and approaching menopause. I doubt I'll ever wear my size 2s again. I hope to exercise at some point. Don't know when that will be since I HATE it, but one day. Maybe.
I did not blog every week last year, but I did double my blog posts so it's a start. I don't think I'll ever get back to the way it used to be (sunrise, sunset), but such is life. Hopefully I'll be able to document the big important things here because the baby books are collecting dust.
There will be pictures on our walls and stairway at some point in 2014. Ditto curtains.
The biggest thing I want to change this year are our mornings. Me, oh my. I want to smash my face into the granite every. single. morning. It is awful here. Don't ever come here before 9 am. Ever. Or maybe do come here. It will make you feel good about your life. Oy. I really don't know what to do for the hour-two hours we are waiting for Jacob's meds to kick in. I have tried ignoring him, I have tried starting earlier, I have tried starting later, I have tried prayer, I have tried separation, I have even tried alcohol on non-school days. Yes. It's that bad. I don't know what else to try yet, but we need the mornings to change. The morning sets the tone for the rest of our days and I think if we can get this under control we'd all be so much happier.
Anyway, my boss gave us all a book called Jesus Calling. Her intention was that we read it each morning and take that portion of The Word to sustain us while teaching our preschool children. It's a daily dated devotional book with scripture. With all that goes on here each morning, the last thing I have time for is reading. Shoot, some days I get all the way to school and realize I didn't put any makeup on, so reading? Gah. My boss, though, was very insistent that we at least give it a try. So I did. I mean, I've tried everything else in the morning. Why not? So the first day I sit my little two down for breakfast while the big one is upstairs claiming something is unfair and I quietly juggled one page of verse and thought. The three of us at the table in our own little world.
If I'm going to read it, why not read it out loud?
And that's what I am doing.
It hasn't miraculously fixed our mornings, but at least they have that message to take them through the day if they choose.
I'll let you know in 2015 how it worked.
Wish us luck.
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