Monday, February 22, 2021

Facing My Fear Head On


 Can you believe this?  

16 years old!  

If you go to the beginning of my blog he was 9 or 10 months old.  


Like this....

He'll leave for college in a little over two years.  Oy, my heart.  

I need to write a birthday post but I have so much to say and my mind hasn't organized it yet.  

Anyway, I will tell you this:   Adam caught the COVID.  

I knew he would.  When this started and we were racing through the Denver airport last March to catch our unmasked flight and he asked me why people were getting upset about "a little cold" and I told him he probably didn't need to worry about it but his dad and his grandparents and me did and he scoffed and pulled his best Donald Trump Its a China thing impression I poked him in the shoulder and said, "Well, you'll be the one to give it to us, mark my works, MARK MY WORDS!" and he laughed at me.  

He apologized driving home from school where he had begged me through text to come and get him because he was SICK, so SICK.   I was sure he was giving me the business and forgot to complete an assignment or he and the girlfriend (ugh, she's the worst, another story) had another break-up (think there have been 12 so far).   He wanted me THAT MINUTE to take him to be tested and I REFUSED! Last spring I would have raced there.  Cymbalta.  It's the best.  Anywho, This was Monday on Wednesday he hadn't been awake more thank maybe four hours a day so I figured let's bang this out and, sure enough, he was POSITIVE.  




Some kid at lunch who never sat with him ever before, sat with him on January 29.   On February 1 he had plugged sinuses and congestion, the next day a very slight cough and only for that day.  On February 2 his head hurt, REALLY hurt.  On February 3 he could not taste and that's when I sorta, kinda freaked out a little.  We went through a drive through, I touched his filthy nose swab with my fingers to help him put it in the big biohazard bag to send off.   Never even had another thought about doing that because I was SURE he was negative.  He must only have a sinus infection because, you know, I had that the past two weeks, don't you remember?  You inherited the crappy sinuses and recurrent migraines just like me, don't sweat it little dude, we're all good.  

I almost threw up when I got that text above.   

But by February 5 when we got the results he felt fine, aside from the lack of taste that had gotten worse.  So the rest of us got the earliest test we could and we were all negative.  Today is February 22 and none of us have felt sick since although I do wonder if maybe gave it to Adam because our symptoms were the same almost to the letter but I don't go out anywhere.  Maybe Elizabeth caught it at school and gave it to me and she was never sick?  She is constantly in my face, it could happen I guess.  I can't find anyone to give me an antibody test so I just have to wonder now.   I feel fabulous now.  Again, Cymbalta is the best. The best news though, my parents got the first dose of the vaccine during this time.  We had a "little" winter storm last week so hoping it doesn't push back their appointment for this Friday for the second dose.  We will wait three weeks and then see them again.   Of course I guess Adam can see them now, I stil don't really understand all the rules.  

Have any of you had "it"?  Have you gotten the vaccine?  At first I thought I wouldn't get one but my parents, so far, have had no problems with it.  I want to work again next year.   My boss is starting a kindergarten at her preschool.   I want that job.  I can't wait to get my call.   I have no problem wearing a mask out anywhere for the rest of my life if I have to, I just want to have dinner with people again and not worry about my parents so much.   


Friday, February 12, 2021

2021....

 Kiss it 2020!

So much for a weekly post.  

If anyone is even reading this, sorry to leave you hanging.  

Let's see....what went on the rest of the year.....

They cancelled my most wonderful time of the year in June (my PCB vacation).  I spent the entire month of July with my parents.  It was awesome.   We did absolutely nothing and I couldn't have been happier with the exception of losing my mind every time my dad went to the supermarket.  August: Adam started football and it was nerve-wracking but he did well.  September:  kids did online school, Adam still went to football we went to the beach for my birthday with friends.  October: Kids went back to school in person.  I actually needed them to do that.  They weren't doing well online and I needed some alone time.  November: Went back up to the lake for Thanksgiving.  Spent $6.000 online for Christmas gifts.  My husband is still mad about it.  December:  My sister came for Christmas.  They got tested first so it wasn't too stressful.  Adam and Elizabeth were quarantined due to exposure most of December so we were able to enjoy ourselves and not worry too much.  

Oh....the best thing ever.....I went on the maximum dosage of Cymbalta in May for depression and anxiety.  I feel like myself again and I mean myself as in my 2000 self.  I should have done this  years ago.  I don't think I would have made it through without and also without him:  




Have mercy, I cannot believe we got a puppy.   It's a long story.  Maybe I will get to it one day.   Let me tell you, though, I love this sweet baby with every fiber of my being.    I needed him so much more than he needed me.   


I mean, how pitiful.....I couldn't say no.   I actually committed to adopting him before asking  telling my husband.  

His name is now Apollo.  I hate that name.  I wanted Zeke or Marty Bird but no.  Adam got to choose because he is supposed to be  Adam's dog.  He is absolutely,  without a doubt MY dog.  I have never been away from him....he goes with me everywhere which is actually harder than you think with a 70 pound dog.   Of course I don't really go anywhere, just to the store to pick up my curbside groceries but still.  

There's much more to tell but,again, going to try the weekly thing again.  

Wish me luck.