Wednesday, February 09, 2011

My Life is What *I* Make of It

I can't stand seeing the gloom on my blog. That was never what I intended when I started it. I don't want to use the spot I created to celebrate my children to focus on the shortcomings of my life. My marriage isn't perfect. It never was. I really had no business airing it on the world wide web, although your support has been appreciated.

Instead, I bring you more of this:



This.

Is why I continue to find happiness.

I love my kids. So much so that sometimes just looking at them makes tears roll down my face. They are the reason I do everything I do. I am not a perfect parent but those kids know they are adored.

I love my job. So much so that I don't even mind waking up at 6:30 in the morning to prepare for it. If you've read for me for long, you know this is big stuff. It is probably the worst paying job for the work I put into it, but this is why I do it:
(Sshh...don't tell...It's probably not kosher to post this & I'll delete it soon, but I adore them too)



I am far from unhappy.

Confused and frustrated...yeah, sometimes, but I learned long ago you can't rely on anyone else to make you happy and you also can't make someone happy unless they really want to be.

I choose to be happy as often as I can and that's why I needed to get my whine-fest off the top of my blog.

5 comments:

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

It's ok, babe. Glad you're choosing to focus on good stuff, but if you ever need to talk, you can email or call me, ok? I am good at being a quiet listener.

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

Ok. I just read the last few posts. I love you and do want you to read your own writings from a bystander's point of view, ok? It makes me worried for your well-being and that of the kids. Not "safety" so much, but happiness. If he won't go to counseling, can you go alone? Just to hash through some of this?

I so wish you lived closer, Andria...

Crazed Nitwit said...

Kids often make things worthwhile and fun.

Miss Hope said...

Kids are the best neosporin for whatever ails you. I do miss working with kids some times because they just love so freely. I'm glad you got your bowl back. That was bugging me something fierce, man.

Sadie said...

You are allowed to vent here... I'm glad you do, especially if you don't have another place to do it.

Your kids are so ridiculously cute, and I may have baby fever, but I don't have KID fever. And your kids? Are CUTE.